I study the muqarnas, and Fatehpur Sikri,
the Alhambra and the Blue Mosque, Hagia Sophia
named, as my mother was named, for wisdom. I contemplate
the Hajj to the Kaaba, the qibla walls, dance
with the Sufi, take my turn at whirling, walk
across the desert in the footsteps made by the silk
traders, and their camels -- tin tin na / dhin na / dhin na.
Deep in the heart of my desolation, while I dwell in
the rectangular earth dining on dates, drying out figs,
sweetening my coffee with the morning music of the Qu'ran,
the muezzin calling from the minarets, I find the grid,
the structure of the pattern, the geometry in the light,
whether of rugs or squinches, pendentives or arches
supporting the dome of heaven.
Knocking my head like a Jew against themihrab, beheading
goats with the Nepalese Hindus, chanting ten-thousand-strong
in the Himalayas with the Buddhists (surely the mountains, so moved,
expelled the Tibetans), embracing Shiva on the charnel ground, Kali
with her skulls or Christ, bloody on the cross, I study. The muqarnas
decorate and support, the design in the rug's pattern
encodes the wisdom of the ayatolla, the guru, the sage,
It is a key to unlock the gate of heaven. As the tumblers fall,
the shuttle flies across my loom, my needle stitches, Shakti awakes.
I begin my pilgramage to Mecca in the profound darkness of my heart
where the sun, now setting, turns all wisdom to black figures,
against the blazing light, walking on shafts of gold out from
the garden into the heaven of illumination. The brain is electricity.
The heart is galaxies beyond galaxies beyond galaxies.
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