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White and full, the seagulls roam, crimson sunned, they've spun from home. Swift they skim, safe from the sea, burnt stem, barren settee, me. |
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His skin is flowing obsidian eyes gleaming as a wild elk. The goddess who made him, why would she let him wander free? To trust? This fancy is not inconsequence: he is man, rooted, a tree. Shiva, Shakti, dance worlds together, a phantasmagoria. |
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Her skin, saffron toasted in the sun, eyes darting like a gazelle. -- That god who made her, how could he have let her go? Was he blind? -- This wonder is not the result of blindness she is a woman, and a sinuous vine. The Buddha's doctrine thus is proved: nothing in this world was created. |
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They turn golden leaves to copper corpses slippery as banana, beauty into dross forever, and rake away from autumn air red-hued leaves, foxes in their lair, that danced a mourning madrigal in loud wind greyed by seagulls' call. Lest the sodden death, slipperier, requires lilies of canna by bed or grave or groveler fixed upon a shining repair of avoidable loose despair. Do not entreat in jest for all weak things that might your ease forestall. The golden leaves are prettier than the naked ground. Like manna, they rush with gusts of windier days, shaken with the shock so rare of wild contingencies which dare to light the shuffled sombre fall of footsteps fading down the hall. Let loose, let loose, let the greener tinge of coppered roofs patina your heart and divide the terror. Conceal all that we still do share. Light candles. Let their charred wicks flare, forgetting what you might recall of the gold, minuet-ed ball. I shall not, will not, you raker of leaves, creating Janaardana, from blue-black Krishna, tormentor of people, from one once so fair. I am not your mare, I'll yet tear your spite from my heart, leaves that gall the drainage from gutters too small. I love the sweet with the tart-er. Let's dance to the concertina of our obsessions, and letter the walls of prisons high and bare, maximize and dully compare my fair, my sweet angel, my doll whatever your horror may scrawl. Leaves in the wind, dark trees sparer, you blot out the light of jnaana that, destined to arise fairer, has become sullied, debonair, by the curse and the cruel care of your transformation to pall the light, the rain, the interval. I'll rake up leaves from the gutter. I'll spin the great wheel of prana I'll flame from the candles sputter whose virtue and radiant glare will skitter like a running hare. Find me in hell's great laughing brawl in fire or the leaf flinging squall. |
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So far it's worn no grooves, chiseled
no paths through memory's older territories of moksha-mind. |
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Seeing the trees rooted in the leaves
the burls, like bears, clinging to the trees, nut-cheeked squirrels running up the bears, Devayani walks. |
For Kat Murphy
(satyam varanane satyam)
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Her name was Kat Black, and the way she felt
about it, she might have come from outer space. She was too old to remember the time at the belly, though, no doubt, having been a kitten once, there had been a time at the belly. (maya)the scruff of the neck, falling through flower gardens, onto a doorstep. (samsara)a blue mood, a red mood or a white hot mood, Yes! white hot in lust for her mistress' hand that petted her belly, "Ah, who could" -- Kat Black thought -- "resist her soft belly?" (karma)tried to train her to vegetarian tastes, but she liked strawberries, she became a fruititarian, (phala)wild grapes of her wrath. (kama)there -- wherever there was -- big and little, (mahamaya)(mahakarma)lone on the seashore, changing her stripes in the sunset, longing, longing... (bindu)while Kat Black was out swimming, Little Cat jumped in too -- into the sea. The tides rolled in and the tides rolled out and the fishes swam underneath. (samadhi)Black thought of as the great trees on the shore became twigs. But Little cat kept swimming -- and laughing. (idam ch'dam cha)memory. And then Kat Black woke up in paradise -- wild with flowers and fresh with trees -- purring. (ananda)ded cat. Should she miss her past? Or enjoy the flowers? And where was Little Cat! (samsaya)rolled on her back and a great hand stroked her belly. (nirvana) |
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Dear One: The problem with writing is to catch an idea and extend it through time, stick with it, believe in it for at least a poem's length, a thought's eternity. Yesterday, the landlord died. Fell off a roof and died. In just four days I will be sixty-five. The rain pours, the wind challenges even the biggest umbrella. Stroll off the end of the pier, master grammar -- or not. Conceal your aches and great pain, conceal the mild things, too. Hop onto the boat with glee bow your knee to the gale. Continuing in space and in time as body, corpse or molecule. Prana, they say is "all". "Live" is the cry Forget the hanging horror of past selves. Jump the rail. And die. Or not. Just as you believe. The world is at sixes and sevens. The years pass to oblivion. The light exceeds time and love. Forgetfullness does win. |
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Hoeky Pokey Nanny Joe tossed a winner to the crow black and stocky hard to know there's all but nothing in the toe. |
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rain, hail, romp with frigid winds. Blossoms in darkened pink, shivering, fragile lace against the bark, enjoy the tempest, dredging molecular, white- capped memories upon roiling seas. Weather gods would wound long-stemmed, fragrant daffodils, would knock about woodroses, drown translucent, snow-white crocuses cupped low, sodden, would beat to earth each face turned to seagulls' shimmer, refreshing sunlight's, moonlight's frothing new year's scent. But even gods, charmed by compliant flora, let their giant zypher-cheeks turn warm, benign, comatose with lilac's singular scent, yielding their anger to the wild, dancing, shadowed, light-pressured, wind-persuaded, unstoppable spring. |
Jan Haag may be reached via e-mail: jhaag@janhaag.com or jhaag@u.washington.edu
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